"Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you."
1 Peter 5:7
Hearing anything but a positive report about your child, much less newborn infant, no matter how mild or severe can rip at a parents soul. I had a very difficult time when Parker Penny was diagnosed on her first day of life with hip dysplasia.
But we went through the treatments and check ups and after a good 3 months of Dr.'s visits, tears, and frustrations, her last ultrasound showed the pavlik harness had done its job and her hips were looking normal. "Come back in 3 months for an xray," her orthopedic surgeon said.
I rejoiced at a healthy report of her hips; but fear and anxiety are slowly creeping in as we get closer and closer to next Monday's check up where she will get xrays of her hips. A positive report would mean her hips are still in place and the sockets are forming correctly. A negative report would likely mean a rhino brace, and possibly surgery and body casting.
Every single night when I nurse her before bedtime I pray and pray and pray that God has finished his work and she is completely healed. (Children with hip dysplasia have to continue to get checked into adolescence as the hips can still shift).
In the past I've let fear and anxiety paralyze me...I'm trying desperately to maintain positive and rely on God's word and let go of the things that are beyond my control. The truth is, I'm scared. But I know my Lord cares for me. And he cares for Parker.