It was this morning. It wasn’t because I pushed myself too hard and my muscles were burning, it was the exact opposite. It was because my trainer had me doing a very basic, elementary exercise and I couldn’t do it without pain shooting down my spine. I’m 38 but sometimes it feels like I have the body of a 90 year old.
Rewind 3 weeks. My husband and I were laying in bed on ice packs with our legs propped. “We CAN’T keep doing this,” I said. Between the two of us, there is a back thrown out in our household about every other month; and not because we’re lifting heavy furniture. It typically happens doing something as simple as getting out of bed. LAME. Anyone with small children knows that a two year old who’s favorite phrase is “Hold me hold me HOLD ME” is not going to understand that mommy and daddy have bad backs.
Enough is enough.
The reality is we have not done a good job of taking care of our bodies, PLUS the toll that toddlers take on a body is no joke. With the constant holding, lifting in and out of cribs, lifting up and down off toilets, reaching down for baths, the in and out of cars, well, it’s a lot for a back to handle. (Having children in your mid 30’s doesn’t help).
Could I lose a few pounds, sure, but I can honestly say that my weight is no longer connected to my self worth and if I never lost another pound in my lifetime I would be just fine. (Hallelujah thank you Jesus–It took me a long time to reach that point). What I do care about is being able to hold my kids, play with my kids and simply keep up with them.
This morning I was frustrated, I was angry, but mostly I was scared. If you’ve never thrown your back out, I hope you never know that kind of pain. I was so nervous that I would tweak it again; terrified I would be laid up for another week in bed without the ability to move. I was paralyzed and couldn’t bring myself to perform a specific exercise. After my mini break down I was able to compose myself, and carefully execute the exercise with the guidance of my trainer. I made it. I had to stop some exercises because my back wasn’t ready and I did alternate moves…but I’m on the road to strength (so is my husband). Take care of your bodies friends.